Before the Curtains Close [1/1]

[theinsaneeraser]

Title: Before the Curtains Close
Author: theinsaneeraser 
Rating: NC-17
Genre and/or Pairing: Angst like there's no tomorrow...Gabriel/Sam (Mentions of possible Bobby/Crowley) 
Spoilers: Season 5 gen
Warnings: Mentions of character death, a bit of self harm. 
Word Count: 601 
Summary: It was his last kiss goodbye, and he didn’t even know it.
Notes: I have no clue where the HELL this came from, I have never written something so angsty...I'm pretty sure it's theinsaneeraser

 

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Hands roam, grope sweat soaked skin, bruising. Nails dragged down flesh, leaving angry red marks in their wake, electing moans and whimpers from parted lips…

 

Sam sat in the seat, staring out at the road as they left the hotel, Lucifer and Gabriel included, behind, driving off to safe. He had tried to make Dean stop, had figured Gabriel knew what he was doing, he’d gone and seen as head; he would show up anytime now with that smirking grin and smelling like sweets and promises.

 

He grips tighter, pulling the angel closer as he slams into him face buried in his angels neck, digging his nails into his hips moaning and grunting…

 

He refuses to believe it, any of it; it’s a lie.

He’s done this before, many times before, always tricking them; always. So when they meet up with Crowley, when Cas shows up again human he slowly feels himself slipping away because it had to be a lie. He can’t breath and he’s pretty sure he’s dying somehow. His blood is loud in his ears and the rooms small and he can vaguely hear Dean calling out to him.

It has to be a lie, has to.

 

“Sammy…” Gabriel groaned out meeting each of his thrusts in earnest as he clasps his mouth over the hunters, panting heavily. “Fuck, Sam!”

 

His fist connects with the window, the wall; anything. He’s bleeding and there is pain and he’s screaming like it’s all he can do. He hears Dean and Castiel, Dean sounds frantic and he’s pretty sure Cas thinks he’s gone crazy but he can’t stop the pounding of his blood in his ears and it’s driving him mad. His knees are weak but his can’t stop breaking things.

Deans behind him, pulling him to the ground screaming at him, telling him to stop; begging for him to tell him what’s wrong and Dean never begs and Sam just slumps into him and curls up; maybe he’ll die…maybe that’s best.

 

“Gabriel, please.” Sam whimpers and pulls the archangel impossibly closer as he feels the heat pull in his stomach and he knows he’s close but he holds back…

 

He watched everything happen in slow motion, Crowley joins them and he’s pretty sure there’s something going on between him and Bobby; he doesn’t care. He researches, when he can stop crying long enough to see the words. Dean makes him lunch in dinner, makes sure he doesn’t hurt himself and Cas stared at him with a sad look in his eyes.

If only they knew, if only they knew why he was like this; he can’t tell them. Dean wouldn’t understand, would mark him for it again. Bobby, Bobby would call him an idjit, and Cas would look at him with pity.

He didn’t want pity.

 

Sam cried out as he cam hard inside of Gabriel, fingertips bruising in his hips as he kisses Gabriel till he can’t breath, the sticky strings of cum spread between their stomachs.

 

He stared down at his hands, bruised and broken and scarred. He still has a few bruises on his hips and that’s when he decide he’s going to say yes, not because he wants to be Lucifer’s bitch but because he wants to save them like he couldn’t save him. He’ll jump into the pit and save the world, sacrifice himself and maybe.

 

"I love you." Sam whispers and Gabriel smiled.

"Love you too Kiddo

 

Maybe then he’ll see Gabriel again.

 

Comments

On nuu!

[castielssamiel.livejournal.com]

*sniffles* nooo! So sad! You have me close to tears...evil angsty*whimper* bad Gabey... had to go and die...

Re: On nuu!

[theinsaneeraser.livejournal.com]

I know...I have no clue where this came from @.@

[half-vulcan.livejournal.com]

Just rip my freaking heart out and eat it! OMG! That was so sad. I was wondering what the hell was going on and then when I got to the end I was like "NOOO!"

I am still pissed that they killed Gabriel off. I hope the rumors that he will be back are true.

[theinsaneeraser.livejournal.com]

I know, I cried while writting this...I was just so angsty DX

They asre, CW comferimed it! Crowley's also comming back as a major character!

[half-vulcan.livejournal.com]

OMG! *flails wildly around room onto the floor and back to the chair*

OK I am better now. I just had to get that out of my system. I am SO excited!

[theinsaneeraser.livejournal.com]

Me too!

[casiedearestfic.livejournal.com]

Oh my Chuck.
Okay.
a) This is beautiful.
b) You made me cry in under 700 words.
c) Sam and Gabe need to be together! D:

[theinsaneeraser.livejournal.com]

Awe, thanks for the wonderful comment, I actully had no clue where this one came from, I was writting something really schmoopy and then I opened a new doctument and this sort of tumbled out...

Yush, they do need to be togeather.

Glad you liked!